Today I don't feel like my bright chirpy self, I am not sure why. Maybe it's because both my biological sons are now out of the house. Maybe it's because I miss home (Jamaica). Maybe it's because my sisters are going through a lot and I can't support them the way I really want to. Maybe it's the damn Covid dark cloud hanging over our heads. Whatever it is, it is okay to feel that way. We are all humans, and emotions, good or bad, are normal. What we do with them is a whole different story.
I didn't realize I was stressed, and that my emotions were all over the place until one simple thing happened and triggered an emotional response. I felt like crying.
I was overwhelmed with stuff from my job, my business, and just life's normal events. I decided to redirect my emotions. But How? Nothing I do will change what is. How could I possibly feel sad about my son going to college and the other doing well in the Airforce? Those are things to celebrate, right? Well sometimes even the positive things in our lives can bring us stress, and that is absolutely normal. In the past when I felt this way, I usually stay in bed and do nothing all day. Sometimes I got on the phone and babble to whoever would listen. Depending on who I'm talking to, I would get some encouraging words, or I would end up feeling worse than I already did. Today I decided not to talk to anyone about how I'm feeling, (Well except for you). Instead, I decided to focus on the things that make me feel good.
I started with doing some house chores, washing, cooking cleaning etc. Usually that takes my mind of stuff a little, but it doesn't make me smile, because I don't really like house work. I went on my website and looked at it over and over again and pinched myself; that made me smile. While doing that, I decided to write this blog, and fulfill the orders that I got. That in itself is therapeutic. I also listened to a Facebook live from Shawnafi Dynesen of Zyzven Naturals. She is one crazy person, but solid in what she believes. I admire her, and she made me bust out laughing. I could feel the stress lifting just by that laughter. Thanks Miss Super Boss Lady.
Today I encourage you to relax, do the things that make you feel good, watch your favorite show, media personality, or whatever brings you some laughter. Staying in bed and doing nothing all day is also a good thing, just get some laughter in it. Eat chocolate and Ice cream if you want and DO NOT COUNT THE DAMN CALORIES. Now smile and go about the rest of your day. I hope for you a brighter tomorrow. One Love.
P.S. I just went for a run in the rain. What a damn good, productive, and positive day it turned out to be.
I subscribe to the thought that’s it’s ok to not be ok .. the important thing is what you do with that place of existence .. don’t try to stay there. I agree that re focussing your thoughts on things that actually bring you joy and into a place of thankfulness will turn that frown upside down 🥰
Love this! Emotions are the least understood dynamics of the human complexity. Society tries to generalize how each individual should handle them but that’s the problem…each individual is different so how we handle our emotions is entirely up to us. As long as the results of our actions are healthy and legal, do whatever works for you. In my humble opinion, the worst thing to do is suppress those emotions with drugs or alcohol. However, if it gets too overwhelming I suggest seeing a therapist or councilor to help you get back to where you need to be.